"Just
as if there were a pool of water in a mountain glen -- clear,
limpid, and unsullied -- where a man with good eyes standing on
the bank could see shells, gravel, and pebbles, and also shoals of
fish swimming about and resting, and it would occur to him, 'This
pool of water is clear, limpid, and unsullied. Here are these
shells, gravel, and pebbles, and also these shoals of fish
swimming about and resting;' so too, the monk discerns as it
actually is, that 'This is stress... This is the origin of
stress... This is the stopping of stress... This is the way
leading to the stopping of stress... These are mental effluents...
This is the origin of mental effluents... This is the stopping of
mental effluents... This is the way leading to the stopping of
mental effluents.' His heart, thus knowing, thus seeing, is
released from the effluent of sensuality, released from the
effluent of becoming, released from the effluent of unawareness.
With release, there is the knowledge, 'Released.' He discerns
that, 'Birth is no more, the holy life is fulfilled, the task
done. There is nothing further for this world.'
"This, great king, is a reward of the contemplative life, visible
here and now, more excellent than the previous ones and more
sublime. And as for another visible reward of the contemplative
life, higher and more sublime than this, there is none."
--
Samaññaphala Sutta
Digha Nikaya
Contents
Note: In these talks, as in Thai usage in general, the words
'heart' and 'mind' are used interchangebly.
Introduction
These
talks -- except for the first -- were originally given
extemporaneously to the monks at Venerable Acariya Maha Boowa's
monastery, Wat Pa Baan Taad, in Udorn Thani Province, Thailand. As
might be expected, they deal in part with issues particular to the
life of Buddist monks, but they also contain much that is of more
general interest. Since the monks who had assembled to listen to
these talks were at different stages in their practice, each talk
deals with a number of issues on a wide variety of levels. Thus
there should be something of use in these pages for every reader
interested in the training of the mind.
The
title of this collection is taken from a Pali term that, directly or
indirectly, forms the theme of a number of the talks:
yatha-bhuta-ñana-dassana -- knowledge and vision of things as
they are. My hope is that these talks will aid and encourage the
reader in his or her own efforts to taste the liberation that comes
with the reality to which this term refers.
Thanissaro Bhikkhu
Rayong
January, 1988
From Ignorance to Emptiness
March
27, 1964
Today
I'd like to take the opportunity to tell you some of my own
ignorance and doubts, with the thought that we all come from the
land of ignorance and doubt inasmuch as our parents and their
ancestors before them were people with the defilements (kilesa)
that led them to ignorance as well. Even all of us here: There's
probably not a one of us who slipped through to be born in the land
of intelligence and freedom from doubt. This being the case, we all
must be subject to doubts. So today I'd like to take the opportunity
to resolve some of the issues that are on your minds by giving a
talk instead of answering the questions you have asked from the
standpoint of your various doubts, ranging from the most basic to
the highest levels -- which I'm not sure I can answer or not. But
the questions you have asked seem to follow so well on one another
that they can provide the framework for a talk instead of a
question-and-answer session.
Each of
us, before starting the practice and in the beginning stages of the
practice, is sure to suffer from ignorance and doubt, as these are
the qualities that lead to the states of becoming and birth into
which all living beings are born. When we lay the groundwork for the
beginning of the practice, we don't have enough starting capital for
intelligence to take the lead in every situation, and so ignorance
is sure to find an opening to take the lead. And as for this
ignorance: If we have never trained our intelligence to show us the
way, the ignorance that holds the upper hand in the heart is sure to
drag us in the wrong direction as a matter of course.
In the
beginning of my own training, I felt doubts about whether the
teachings of the Buddha -- both the practices to be followed and the
results to be obtained -- were as complete as he said they were.
This was an uncertainty that ran deep in my heart during the period
in which I was debating whether or not to practice for the really
high levels of Dhamma -- or, to put it bluntly, for the sake of
nibbana. Before I had considered practicing for the sake of
nibbana, these doubts hardly ever occurred to me, probably
because I hadn't yet aimed my compass in this direction. But after I
had ordained and studied the Dhamma -- and especially the life of
the Buddha, which was the story of his great renunciation leading to
his Awakening to the paths (magga), fruitions (phala),
and nibbana; and then the lives of the Noble Disciples who,
having heard the Dhamma from the Buddha, went off to practice in
various places until they too gained Awakening, becoming witnesses
to the truth of the Buddha and his teachings -- when I had studied
to this point, I felt a sense of faith and conviction, and wanted to
train myself to be like them.
But the
training that would make me be like them: How was I to follow it?
The Dhamma -- in other words, the practice that would lead the heart
to awaken to the higher levels of Dhamma like the Buddha and his
disciples: Would it still produce the same sorts of results or would
it be fruitless and simply lead to pointless hardship for those who
practiced it? Or would it still give the full results in line with
the well-taught teachings (svakkhata-dhamma)? This was my
primary doubt. But as for believing in the Buddha's Awakening and
that of his disciples, of this I was fully convinced in my way as an
ordinary run-of-the-mill person. The thing that formed a stumbling
block to me in the beginning stages was the doubt as to whether or
not the path of practice I would take, following the Buddha and his
disciples, would lead to the same point they had reached. Was it now
all overgrown with brambles and thorns? Had it changed into
something other than the Dhamma that leads away from suffering (niyyanika-dhamma),
even though the Buddha and his disciples had all followed this very
same path to the land of peace and security? This was my doubt
concerning the causes in the practice. As for the results of the
practice, I wondered whether the paths, fruitions, and nibbana
still existed as they had in the time of the Buddha. These doubts,
which ran deep in my heart, I couldn't tell to anyone else because I
felt there was no one who could resolve them for me and dispel them
from my heart.
This is
why I had my hopes constantly set on meeting Ven. Acariya Mun. Even
though I had never met him before, I had heard his reputation, which
had been spreading from Chieng Mai for quite some time, that he was
a monk of distinction. By and large, the people who would tell me
about him wouldn't speak of him in terms of the ordinary levels of
noble attainments. They'd all speak of his arahantship. This had me
convinced that when I had finished my studies in line with the vow I
had made, I'd have to make the effort to go out to practice and live
under his guidance so as to cut away the doubts running deep in my
heart at that time.
The vow
I had made to myself was that I would complete the third grade of
Pali studies. As for Dhamma studies, whether or not I would pass the
examinations was of no concern to me. As soon as I had passed the
third-level Pali exams, I'd go out to do nothing but practice. I'd
absolutely refuse to study or take the exams for the higher levels.
This was the vow I had made. So the aim of my education was the
third level of Pali studies. Whether it was my good or bad fortune,
though, I can't say, but I failed the Pali exams for two years, and
passed only on the third year. As for the three levels of Dhamma
studies, I ended up passing them all, because I was studying and
taking the examinations for both subjects together.
When I
went up to Chieng Mai, it so happened that Ven. Acariya Mun had been
invited by Ven. Chao Khun Dhammachedi of Udorn Thani to spend the
Rains Retreat (vassa) in Udorn, and so he had left his
seclusion and come to stay at Wat Chedi Luang in Chieng Mai at just
about the time of my arrival. As soon as I learned that he was
staying there, I was overwhelmed with joy. The next morning, when I
returned from my alms round, I learned from one of the other monks
that earlier that morning Ven. Acariya Mun had left for alms on that
path and had returned by the very same path. This made me even more
eager to see him. Even if I couldn't meet him face to face, I'd be
content just to have a glimpse of him before he left for Udorn Thani.
The
next morning before Ven. Acariya Mun went on his alms round, I
hurried out early for alms and then returned to my quarters. There I
kept watch along the path by which he would return, as I had been
told by the other monks, and before long I saw him coming. I hurried
to my quarters and peeked out of my hiding to catch a glimpse of
him, with the hunger that had come from having wanted to see him for
such a long time. And then I actually saw him. The moment I saw him,
a feeling of complete faith in him arose within me. I hadn't
wasted my birth as a human being, I thought, because I now
had seen an arahant. Even though no one had told me that he was
an arahant, my heart became firmly convinced the moment I saw him
that that was what he was. At the same time, a feeling of sudden
ecstasy hard to describe came over me, making my hair stand on end
-- even though he hadn't yet seen me with his physical eyes.
Not too
many days after that, he left Wat Chedi Luang to head for Udorn
Thani together with his students. As for me, I stayed on to study
there at Wat Chedi Luang. When I had passed my Pali exams, I
returned to Bangkok with the intention of heading out to practice
meditation in line with my vow, but when I reached Bangkok a senior
monk who out of his kindness wanted to help me further my Pali
studies told me to stay on. I tried to find some way to slip away,
in keeping with my intentions and my vow, because I felt that the
conditions of my vow had been met the moment I had passed my Pali
exams. Under no terms could I study for or take the next level of
Pali exams.
It's a
trait with me to value truthfulness. Once I've made a vow, I won't
break it. Even life I don't value as much as a vow. So now I had to
try to find some way or another to go out to practice. It so
happened during that period that the senior monk who was my teacher
was invited out to the provinces, so I got the chance to leave
Bangkok. Had he been there, it would have been difficult for me to
get away, because I was indebted to him in many ways and probably
would have felt such deference for him that I would have had
difficulty leaving. But as soon as I saw my chance, I decided to
make a vow that night, asking for an omen from the Dhamma that would
reinforce my determination in going out this time.
After I
had finished my chants, I made my vow, the gist of which was that if
my going out to meditate in line with my earlier vow would go
smoothly and fulfill my aspirations, I wanted an unusual vision to
appear to me, either in my meditation or in a dream. But if I
wouldn't get to go out to practice, or if having gone out I'd meet
with disappointment, I asked that the vision show the reason why I'd
be disappointed and dissatisfied. But if my going out was to fulfill
my aspirations, I asked that the vision be extraordinarily strange
and amazing. With that, I sat in meditation, but no visions appeared
during the long period I sat meditating, so I stopped to rest.
As soon
as I fell asleep, though, I dreamed that I was floating high in the
sky above a large metropolis. It wasn't Bangkok, but I don't know
what metropolis it was. It stretched as far as the eye could see and
was very impressive. I floated three times around the metropolis and
then returned to earth. As soon as I returned to earth, I woke up.
It was four a.m. I quickly got up with a feeling of fullness and
contentment in my heart, because while I had been floating around
the metropolis, I had seen many strange and amazing things that I
can't describe to you in detail. When I woke up, I felt happy,
cheerful, and very pleased with my vision, at the same time thinking
to myself that my hopes were sure to be fulfilled, because never
before had I seen such an amazing vision -- and at the same time, it
had coincided with my vow. So that night I really marveled at my
vision. The next morning, after my meal, I went to take leave of the
senior monk who was in charge of the monastery, and he willingly
gave permission for me to go.
From
there I set out for Nakhorn Ratchasima Province, where I spent the
rains in Cakkaraad District. I started practicing concentration (samadhi)
and was amazed at how my mind developed stillness and calm step by
step. I could clearly see my heart settle down in peace. After that
the senior monk who was my Pali teacher asked me to return to
Bangkok to continue my studies. He even had the kindness to come
after me, and then continued further out into the provinces. On the
way back he was going to have me accompany him to Bangkok. I really
felt in a bind, so I headed for Udorn Thani in order to find Ven.
Acariya Mun. The progress I had been making in concentration
practice, though, disappeared at my home village of Baan Taad. The
reason it disappeared was simply because I made a single klod. [1]
I hadn't even spent a full month at Baan Taad when I began to feel
that my mind wasn't settling down in concentration as snugly as it
had before. Sometimes I could get it to settle down, sometimes not.
Seeing that things didn't look promising and that I could only lose
by staying on, I quickly left.
In
coming from Nakhorn Ratchasima to Udorn Thani, my purpose had been
to catch up with Ven. Acariya Mun, who had spent the rains at Wat
Noan Nives, Udorn Thani. I didn't reach him in time, though, because
he had been invited to Sakon Nakhorn before my arrival, so I went on
to stay at Wat Thung Sawaang in Nong Khai for a little more than
three months.
In May
of that year, 1942, I left Nong Khai for the town of Sakon Nakhorn,
and from there went on to the monastery where Ven. Acariya Mun was
staying in Baan Khoak, Tong Khoam Township, Muang District, Sakon
Nakhorn Province. When I reached the monastery, I found him doing
walking meditation in the late evening dusk. 'Who's that?' he asked,
so I told him who I was. He then left his meditation path and went
to the meeting hall -- he was staying in a room there in the meeting
hall -- and conversed with me, showing a great deal of kindness and
compassion for the incredibly ignorant person who had come to seek
him out. He gave me a sermon that first evening, the gist of which
I'll relate to you as far as I can remember it. It's a message that
remains close to my heart to this day.
'You've
already studied a good deal,' he told me, 'at least enough to earn
the title of "Maha." Now I'm going to tell you something that I want
you take and think over. Don't go thinking that I underrate the
Dhamma of the Lord Buddha, but at the present moment no matter
how much of the Dhamma you've studied, it will serve no purpose
in keeping with your status as a scholar other than simply being
an obstacle to your meditation, because you won't be able to
resist dwelling on it and using it to take the measure of things
when you're trying to calm your heart. So for the sake of
convenience when fostering stillness in your heart, I want you to
take the Dhamma you've studied and put it away for the time being.
When the time comes for it to benefit you, it will all come
streaming in to blend perfectly with your practice. At the same
time, it will serve as a standard to which you should make the heart
conform. But for the time being, I don't want you to concern
yourself with the Dhamma you've studied at all. Whatever way you
make the mind still or use discernment (pañña) to investigate
the khandhas, I want you first to restrict yourself to the
sphere of the body, because all of the Dhamma in the texts points
to the body and mind, but the mind doesn't yet have any firm
evidence and so can't take the Dhamma learned from the texts and put
it to good use. The Dhamma will simply become allusions and labels
leading you to speculate elsewhere to the point where you become a
person with no foundations, because the mind is fixated on theory in
a manner that isn't the way of the Lord Buddha. So I want you to
take what I've said and think it over. If you set your mind on the
practice without retreating, the day will come when these words of
mine will impress themselves on your heart.' Of what I can remember
him saying that day, this is all I'll ask to tell for now.
I felt
an immediate sense of faith and conviction in him as soon as I saw
him face to face that night, both because of my conviction in the
Dhamma he was so kind to teach me, and because of the assistance he
gave in letting me stay under his guidance. I stayed with him with a
sense of contentment hard to describe -- but also with a stupidity
on my own part hard to describe as well. He himself was very kind,
helping me with the Dhamma every time I went to see him.
My
practice when I first went to stay with him was a matter of progress
and regress within the heart. My heart hardly ever settled down
firmly for a long period of time. The first rains I spent with him
was my ninth rains, in as much as I had spent my first seven rains
in study, and one rains in Nakhorn Ratchasima after starting to
practice. During that first rains with Ven. Acariya Mun, there was
nothing but progress and regress in the area of my concentration.
After the rains, I went up to stay on a mountain for more than two
months and then returned to be with him, my mind still progressing
and regressing in the same way. I couldn't figure out why it kept
regressing even though I was intent on practicing to the full extent
of my ability. Some nights I was unable to sleep all night long out
of fear that the mind would regress, and yet it would still manage
to regress. And especially when the mind was beginning to settle
down in stillness, I'd accelerate my efforts even more, out of fear
that it would regress as it had before -- and even then it would
regress on me. After a while it would progress again and then
regress again. When it had progressed, it would stay at that level
for only three days and then regress right before my eyes. This
disturbed me and made me wonder: Why was it able to regress? Was it
because I had let go of my meditation word? Perhaps my
mindfulness (sati) had lapsed at that point. So I made a note of
this and promised myself that no matter what, I would have to keep
the meditation word in charge of my mind at all times. Regardless of
where I would go, and regardless of whether I was in our out of
concentration -- even when I was sweeping the monastery compound or
doing any of my chores -- I wouldn't allow my mind to slip away from
buddho, the word I liked to repeat in my meditation.
At this
point, when the mind would settle down into stillness, if it could
continue to think of the meditation word buddho in that
stillness, I wouldn't let go of it. If the mind was going to regress
in any way, this was where I would have to know.
As soon
as I had taken note of this point and had made my promise, I started
repeating the word buddho. As I was repeating it, the mind
was able to settle down quickly, much more quickly than it had
before. It would let go of its meditation word only when it had
settled snugly into stillness. At that moment, whether or not I
would think buddho, the awareness of that stillness was
already solidly 'buddho' in and of itself. It wouldn't be
forming any thoughts at all. At that point I'd stop my repetition.
As soon as the mind made a move to withdraw -- in other words, as
soon as it rippled slightly -- I'd immediately start pumping the
meditation word back in again as a means of keeping the mind in
place. At the same time, I'd keep watch to see at what point the
mind would regress. I abandoned my concern for the progress or
regress of the mind. No matter how far the mind might progress or
regress, I wasn't willing to let go of my meditation word. Even if
the mind was going to regress, I'd let it regress, because when I
had been determined that it not regress, it had still regressed in
spite of my determination.
Now,
though, I felt no more concern for whether the mind would progress
or regress. I'd simply force it to be conscious of buddho.
I'd try to be aware of progress and regress only in terms of the
heart that had buddho in charge. This was where I would
know. This was where I would clearly see. This was the one spot
in which I'd place my confidence. I wouldn't have to concern myself
with progress or regress.
As time
passed, the mind that had once progressed and regressed didn't
regress. This was what made me realize: The fact that the
mind had kept regressing so often was because of a lapse in its
meditation word; mindfulness must have slipped away at that
moment for sure. So from that point on I kept my meditation word
continually in place. No matter where I'd go or where I'd stay, I
wouldn't let mindfulness lapse. Even if I was to be on the verge of
death, I wouldn't let mindfulness slip away from buddho. If
the mind was going to regress, this was the only place where I'd try
to know it. I wouldn't concern myself with the matter in any other
way. As a result, the mind was able to establish a foundation for
itself because of the meditation word buddho.
After
that came my second Rains Retreat with Ven. Acariya Mun. Before the
rains began, my mind felt still and firm in its concentration, with
no regressing at all. Even then, I refused to let go of my
meditation word. This kept up to the point where I was able to sit
in meditation without changing to any other position from early
night until dawn.
During
my second rains with Ven. Acariya Mun, I held to sitting in
meditation until dawn as more important than any other method in my
practice. After that I gradually eased back, as I came to see the
body as a tool that could wear out if I had no sense of moderation
in using it. Still, I found that accelerating my efforts by means of
sitting all night until dawn gave more energy to the heart than any
other method.
The
period in which I was sitting up all night until dawn was when I
gained clear comprehension of the feelings of pain that arise from
sitting in meditation for long periods of time, because the pain
that arose at that time was strange and exceptional in many ways.
The discernment that investigated so as to contend with the pain
kept at its work without flagging, until it was able to understand
the affairs of every sort of pain in the body -- which was a solid
mass of pain. At the same time, discernment was able to penetrate in
to know the feelings of the heart. This did a great deal to
strengthen my mindfulness, my discernment, and my courage in the
effort of the practice. At the same time, it made me courageous and
confident with regard to the future, in that the pains that would
appear at the approach of death would be no different from the
pains I was experiencing and investigating in the present. There
would be nothing about those pains that would be so different or
exceptional as to have me deceived or confused at the time of death.
This was a further realization. The pain, as soon as discernment had
fully comprehended it, disappeared instantaneously, and the mind
settled down into total stillness.
Now at
a point like this, if you wanted to, you could say that the mind is
empty, but it's empty in concentration. When it withdraws from that
concentration, the emptiness disappears. From there, the mind
resumes its investigations and continues with them until it gains
expertise in its concentration. (Here I'll ask to condense things so
as to fit them into the time we have left.) Once concentration is
strong, discernment steps up its investigation of the various
aspects of the body until it sees them all clearly and is able to
remove its attachments concerning the body once and for all. At that
point the mind begins to be empty, but it doesn't yet display a
complete emptiness. There are still images appearing as pictures
within it until it gains proficiency from its relentless training.
The images within the heart then begin to fade day by day, until
finally they are gone. No mental images appear either inside or
outside the heart. This is also called an empty mind.
This
kind of emptiness is the inherent emptiness of the mind that has
reached its own level. It's not the emptiness of concentration, or
of sitting and practicing concentration. When we sit in
concentration, that's the emptiness of concentration. But when the
mind has let go of the body because of the thorough comprehension
that comes when its internal images are all gone, and because of the
power of its mindfulness and discernment that are fully alert to
these things, this is called the emptiness of the mind on its own
level.
When
this stage is reached, the mind is truly empty. Even though the body
appears, there's simply a sense that the body is there. No image of
the body appears in the mind at all. Emptiness of this sort is said
to be empty on the level of the mind -- and it's constantly empty
like this at all times. If this emptiness is nibbana, it's
the nibbana of that particular meditator or of that stage of
the mind, but it's not yet the nibbana of the Buddha. If
someone were to take the emptiness of concentration for nibbana
when the mind settles down in concentration, it would simply be the
nibbana of that particular meditator's concentration. Why is
it that these two sorts of emptiness aren't the emptiness of the
Buddha's nibbana? Because the mind empty in concentration is
unavoidably satisfied with and attached to its concentration. The
mind empty in line with its own level as a mind is unavoidably
absorbed in and attached to that sort of emptiness. It has to take
that emptiness as its object or preoccupation until it can pass
beyond it. Anyone who calls this emptiness nibbana can be
said to be attached to the nibbana in this emptiness without
realizing it. When this is the case, how can this sort of emptiness
be nibbana?
If we
don't want this level of nibbana, we have to spread out
feelings (vedana), labels (sañña), thought-formations
(sankhara), and cognizance (viññana) for a thorough
look until we see them clearly and in full detail -- because the
emptiness we're referring to is the emptiness of feeling, in that a
feeling of pleasure fills this emptiness. The mind's labels brand it
as empty. Thought-formations take this emptiness as their
preoccupation. Cognizance helps be aware of it within and isn't
simply aware of things outside -- and so this emptiness is the
emptiness of the mind's preoccupation.
If we
investigate these things and this emptiness clearly as
sankhara-dhammas, or fabrications, this will open the way by
which we are sure some day of passing beyond them. When we
investigate in this way, these four khandhas and this
emptiness -- which obscure the truth -- will gradually unravel and
reveal themselves bit by bit until they are fully apparent. The mind
is then sure to find a way to shake itself free. Even the underlying
basis for sankhara-dhammas that's full of these fabricated
things will not be able to withstand mindfulness and discernment,
because it is interrelated with these things. Mindfulness and
discernment of a radical sort will slash their way in -- just like a
fire that burns without stopping when it meets with fuel -- until
they have dug up the root of these fabricated things. Only then will
they stop their advance.
On this
level, what are the adversaries to the nibbana of the Buddha?
The things to which the mind is attached: the sense that, 'My heart
is empty,' 'My heart is at ease,' 'My heart is clean and clear.'
Even though we may see the heart as empty, it's paired with an
un-emptiness. The heart may seem to be at ease, but it depends on
stress. The heart may seem clean and clear, but it dwells with
defilement -- without our being aware of it. Thus emptiness,
ease, and clarity are the qualities that obscure the heart because
they are the signs of becoming and birth. Whoever wants to cut off
becoming and birth should thus investigate so as to be wise to these
things and to let them go. Don't be possessive of them, or they will
turn into a fire to burn you. If your discernment digs down into
these three lords of becoming as they appear, you will come to the
central hub of becoming and birth, and it will be scattered from the
heart the moment discernment reaches the foundation on which it is
based.
When
these things are ended through the power of discernment, that too is
a form of emptiness. No signs of any conventional reality (sammati)
will appear in this emptiness at all. This is an emptiness different
from the forms of emptiness we have passed through. Whether this
emptiness can be called the emptiness of the Buddha, or whose
emptiness it is, I'm afraid I can't say, other than that it's an
emptiness that each meditator can know directly only for him or
herself alone.
This
emptiness has no time or season. It's akaliko -- timeless --
throughout time. The emptiness of concentration can change, in terms
of progress and regress. The emptiness on the formless or image-less
(arupa) level, which serves as our path, can change or be
transcended. But this emptiness exclusively within oneself doesn't
change -- because there is no self within this emptiness, and no
sense that this emptiness is oneself. There is simply the
knowledge and vision of things as they are (yatha-bhuta-ñana-dassana)
-- seeing this emptiness in line with its natural principles as they
actually are, and seeing all phenomena as they actually are, as they
pass by and exist in general. Even virtue, concentration, and
discernment -- the qualities we use to straighten out the heart --
are realized for what they are and let go in line with their
actuality. Nothing at all remains lurking in the nature of this
final stage of emptiness.
I ask
that we all reflect on these three kinds of emptiness and try to
develop ourselves to attain them -- and especially the last form of
emptiness, which is an emptiness in the principles of nature, beyond
the range where any other person or any conventional reality can
become involved with us ever again. Our doubts, ranging from the
beginning levels of the Dhamma to this ultimate emptiness, will find
resolution, with our own knowledge and vision acting as judge.
So now
at the end of this talk -- which started out with my telling you of
my own ignorance step by step and then strayed off to this final
emptiness, which is a quality somewhat beyond my powers to explain
any further -- I'll ask to stop, as the proper time seems to have
come.
May
happiness and contentment be with each and every one of you.
The Tracks of the Ox
An
excerpt from a talk given July 6, 1982
...Whichever theme you focus on, be earnest with it, keeping
mindfulness in constant touch with the work you are doing. For
example, if you're focusing on the repetition of buddho, keep
constantly aware of the word buddho, buddho, as if there were
nothing else left in the world for you to become two with this or
three with that. There is only one thing: the word buddho
blending step by step with your awareness. As the mind becomes more
and more still, the buddho you are repeating will more and
more blend into one with your awareness. Then the word buddho,
buddho will fall silent, leaving only an awareness that's more
conspicuous than before. This means that you've reached the mind. To
put it in terms of following the tracks of an ox, you've reached the
ox and can let go of its tracks. Here you've reached the inner
buddha, which is like the ox, so now you can let go of the
meditation word.
The
same holds true if you focus on keeping the breath in mind. Whether
the breath is heavy or refined, simply be aware of it as it normally
is. Don't set up any expectations. Don't force the breath to
be like this or that. Keep your awareness with the breath, because
in meditating by taking the breath as your preoccupation, you're not
after the breath. The breath is simply something for the mind to
hold to so that you can reach the real thing, just as when you
follow the tracks of an ox: You're not after the tracks of the ox.
You follow its tracks because you want to reach the ox. Here you're
keeping track of the breath so as to reach the real thing:
awareness. If you were to start out just by holding on to awareness,
you wouldn't get any results, just as you wouldn't be sure of
finding the ox if you simply went around looking for it. But if you
follow its tracks, you're going to find it for sure. Your meditation
word has to keep moving in. This is called following the tracks of
the ox step by step until you reach the ox, or what knows: namely
the mind.
The
same holds true with focusing on the breath. If it's heavy, know
that it's heavy. Don't get worried or upset about it, and don't be
afraid that you'll die because the breath is heavy or because you
feel suffocated. When you do heavy work, you feel suffocated --
don't think that you feel suffocated only when focusing on the
breath. There are a lot of other things more suffocating than this.
If you carry a post or lift something heavy, you feel suffocated to
death all over the body, not just in the chest or in the breath. The
whole body is ready to burst because of the heaviness and great
pain, and yet you can take it. You even know that it's because of
the heavy object, and that's the way it has to be.
While
you focus on keeping the breath in mind when the breath is coarse,
it's as if you were lifting something heavy. It's naturally bound to
feel suffocating, so don't worry about it. Even if it's suffocating,
the important point is to keep track of the breath coming in and
out. Eventually the breath will become more and more refined,
because mindfulness is focused on the breath and doesn't go anywhere
else. When the breath goes in, be aware of it. When it goes out, be
aware of it, but there's no need to follow it in and out. That would
simply be creating a greater burden for yourself, and your attention
might slip away. So focus right on the entry point where the breath
goes in and out. In most cases, the tip of the nose is the place to
focus on the breath. Keep watch right there. Keep aware right there.
Don't waste your time speculating or planning on how the results
will appear, or else your mind will wander away from the principle
of the cause that will give rise to those results. Keep close watch
on the cause -- what you are doing -- and the breath will become
more and more refined.
When
the breath becomes more refined, that shows that the mind is
refined. Even if the breath becomes so refined that it disappears --
at the same time that you're aware that it's disappearing -- don't
be afraid. The breath disappears, but your awareness doesn't
disappear. You're meditating not for the sake of the breath, but for
the sake of awareness, so stay with that awareness. You don't have
to worry or be afraid that you'll faint or die. As long as the mind
is still in charge of the body, then even if the breath disappears,
you won't die. The mind will dwell with freedom, with no agitation,
no worries, no fears at all. This is how you focus on the breath.
The Path of Strength
September 30, 1962
We have
gone forth from the household life and are abstainers from all
things that are our own enemies and enemies of the common good.
That's why we're said to have gone forth: It means that we abstain.
'Abstaining' here means refraining from the things that work to our
detriment. Once we have gone forth, our duty is to abstain from
things that are unwise and to develop wisdom -- intelligence -- as
much as we can until it is enough to carry us past our obstacles:
the entire mass of suffering.
At
present we all know that we have gone forth. The world calls us
'people who have gone forth,' so be conscious of your status at all
times and in your every movement in thought, word, and deed. You are
ordained in the Buddha's religion and have his teachings as your
guide. His teachings have both a fence and an open way. The fence is
the Vinaya, which prescribes penalties for our errors -- major,
intermediate, and minor. This is the fence that blocks the wrong
paths so that we won't stray down them, and that opens the right
path -- the Dhamma -- so that we can follow it to the goal to which
we aspire. The Vinaya is a fence on both sides of the path. If we go
astray, it means we've gone wrong. If we go just a little astray,
we've gone just a little bit wrong. If we go far astray, we've gone
far wrong. If we go so far astray that we can't get back on the
path, we've gone absolutely wrong. This is like a person who loses
his way: If he gets just a little lost, he can quickly get back on
the path. If he gets more lost, it wastes a lot of his time. If he
gets really lost, he has no chance of reaching his goal. Thus the
Vinaya is like a fence to prevent those who have gone forth from
going wrong. This fence has various levels -- in line with the
differing levels of lay people and those who have ordained -- for us
to observe in line with our moral duties, beginning with the five
precepts and going up to the eight, the ten, and the 227 precepts.
As for
the Dhamma, which is the path to follow as taught by the Buddha, it
has conviction as its basis -- in other words, conviction in
the path to be followed for good results -- and persistence
in making the effort to follow the path unflaggingly. Mindfulness
is what guides our efforts as we follow the path. Concentration
is firmness of the heart in following the path, in addition to being
food for the journey -- in other words, mental peace and ease along
the way before we reach the goal. And discernment is
circumspection in following the path step by step from beginning to
end. These qualities support and encourage us to stay on the right
path. When we have these five qualities -- conviction, persistence,
mindfulness, concentration, and discernment -- constantly with us,
there's no need to doubt that the results will appear as our reward,
clear to the heart, in line with our strength and abilities. If we
develop these five qualities so that they are powerful within our
hearts, the results that the Buddha proclaimed as lying at the end
of the path -- release and nibbana -- won't be able to elude
us, because all of these qualities aim at these results.
So I
ask that you as meditators nourish your conviction in the Dhamma and
in your own capabilities. Make your persistence adequate to the
task. Concentration will then appear as a result, so try to make it
adequate, and take mindfulness and discernment as your guardians.
The results will then appear to your full satisfaction. You don't
have to worry about where the paths, fruitions, and nibbana
lie. Try to nourish the causes I have explained here and make them
adequate. Nothing will then be able to prevent the results that
will arise from those causes.
These
five qualities -- principles in following the path -- are called the
five indriya or five bala. 'Indriya' means
dominant factor. 'Bala' means strength. As for the Vinaya,
it's a fence guarding both sides of the path to keep us from
straying from the way to the paths, fruitions, and nibbana.
The Buddha closed off both sides and then opened the way -- the five
strengths -- for us to follow as much as we like.
Kaya-viveka: physical seclusion in your dwelling place. The
place where we are staying now is fairly conducive in this respect.
Citta-viveka: mental seclusion. Those of you aiming for inner
seclusion in line with the levels of your concentration have already
attained a fair amount. Those of you who are just beginning, who
don't have any mental seclusion in your hearts, should try to
nourish the five strengths to make them solid. Inner seclusion will
gradually appear step by step. Those of you who have attained an
adequate amount of inner seclusion should try to make it more and
more refined, at the same time developing discernment or
circumspection with regard to your seclusion. As for those of you at
the higher stages of the practice, you should urgently gather up
persistence with discernment so as to make it adequate, and it will
bear fruit as upadhi-viveka -- absolute seclusion from the
defilements -- appearing clearly to your hearts.
Physical seclusion means finding peace in solitary places. You don't
get embroiled in external matters; you don't latch on to work to
disturb the body to the point where you turn your temporary dwelling
place into a factory, viewing physical work as the basis of the
religion and as your occupation as a monk -- as we see happening
everywhere -- to the point where you no longer have any interest in
the inner effort of the practice that is a monk's true duty. Mental
seclusion refers to the peace of mind endowed with the inner effort
of the practice to keep it from running wild with the things that
make contact. You rein it in so as to keep it still with
watchfulness and restraint at all times. The nature of this level of
mental peace is that even though external things may not be making
any disturbance, there are still some enemy preoccupations lurking
within the mind. This is why this level is termed simply mental
seclusion, seclusion from the disturbance of external objects.
As for
seclusion from the defilements, this refers to peace with regard to
such external things as sights, sounds, smells, and tastes, as well
as to peace with regard to internal preoccupations that are the
particular enemies of the mind. In other words, you are free both
from external enemies and from internal enemies. This is
absolute seclusion from the defilements, without even the least
thing infiltrating the heart. The heart is in this state at all
times. Even though various things may come and make contact, or the
khandhas may do their work in line with their duties,
these things can't permeate into the heart to cause it any
difficulties.
These
are the results that come from the basis of physical and mental
seclusion. These three qualities -- physical seclusion, mental
seclusion, and seclusion with regard to the defilements -- are
qualities that all of you as meditators should be capable of
developing fully within yourselves. There should be nothing blocking
your way. All I ask is that you don't abandon your efforts. Be
courageous and enthusiastic in searching out lonely, isolated
places: places where you can shed your foolishness with regard to
yourselves once and for all. This is the way through which the
Buddha and all his Noble Disciples passed before reaching the land
of nibbana -- so how could these places turn into the enemies
of those of us who are following the Buddha's example? Don't be
worried that you'll lose your lives in such places. If that were to
be the case, the Buddha would have had to change his preliminary
instructions to us after our ordination from rukkhamula-senasanam
-- living in the forest -- to something else, in keeping with his
compassion for all living beings, human and divine. If living in
lonely, solitary places, making the effort in line with the Buddha's
example, were to give results other than those corresponding to the
Dhamma he taught, he would have had to modify his various teachings
to be in keeping with the demands of time and place. The 37 wings to
Awakening (bodhi-pakkhiya-dhamma) -- which are like the
Buddha's very heart that he gave to us so rightly -- would have had
to be completely altered.
But
these truths are constant and unwavering. The Buddha never changed
them. We as meditators should thus modify our thoughts, words, and
deeds to fit in with this Dhamma. It would be highly inappropriate
for us to modify the Dhamma to conform with the influence of our
hearts with their defilements. If we were to do such a thing, we
would become Devadatta's in our thoughts, words, and deeds, and our
Teacher -- the Buddha's right teachings -- would be lost to us
without our even realizing it.
So try
to be persistent, in line with the teachings given by the Buddha. Be
brave in contending with the enemies of the heart -- both those that
come from within and those that come from without -- together with
the results they bring. Always take an interest in seeing where
suffering and stress come from and how they arise. Don't abandon
this work or get bored with it. Try to know the causes and effects
of the things that come into contact or become involved with the
heart to see how they give rise to stress, until you can ultimately
see the causes clearly -- and in that same moment, you will clearly
understand the results.
The
most important points, no matter when I teach you -- and they are
teachings that lie close to my heart -- are mindfulness and
discernment. These qualities are very important. If you lack
mindfulness and discernment, the results of your practice will be
erratic. The progress of your efforts will be interrupted and
uneven. The techniques of your intelligence for curing defilement
will be lacking, and the results -- peace and ease -- will be
sporadic. If mindfulness and discernment are interrupted, you
should know that all the efforts of your practice have been
interrupted in the same instant. So I ask that each of you
realize this. Every time I've given a talk, I've never omitted the
topics of mindfulness and discernment. You could almost say that I
give them the limelight more than any other topic, for I've
considered the matter to the best of my ability, from the time I
first started the practice until today, and I have never seen any
qualities superior to mindfulness and discernment in being able to
unravel things within or without so as to make them clear to the
heart. For this reason, I teach you these two qualities so that
you'll know: To put them in terms of wood, they're the heartwood or
the tap root of the tree. In terms of the Dhamma, they're the root,
the crucial tools for eliminating all defilements and mental
effluents (asava), from the blatant to the most extremely
refined levels, once and for all.
If you
lack mindfulness, you can't even give rise to concentration. If you
lack discernment, your concentration might turn into wrong
concentration -- for the word 'concentration' is a neutral term.
There's no assurance as to what sort of concentration it may be. If
it lacks discernment as its guardian, it's sure to turn into
concentration that deviates from the principles of the Dhamma
without your realizing it. There are many levels of wrong
concentration -- those that appear blatantly to the world, as well
as intermediate and subtle levels -- but here I'll discuss only
those forms of wrong concentration that can occur to us in the area
of the practice without our realizing it.
For
example, when we enter concentration, the mind may gather and rest
for a long or a short time, but when we withdraw, we're still
attached to that concentration and not at all interested in
developing discernment. We may feel that the concentration will turn
into the paths, fruitions, or nibbana; or else we are
addicted to the concentration and want the mind to stay gathered
that way for long periods of time or forever. Sometimes, after the
mind gathers into its resting place, it then withdraws a bit, going
out to know the various things that make contact, becoming attached
and engrossed with its visions. Sometimes it may float out of the
body to travel to the Brahma worlds, heaven, hell, or the world of
the hungry shades, without a thought for what's right or wrong, as
we become engrossed in our visions and abilities, taking them as our
amazing paths, fruitions, and nibbana, and those of the
religion as well. When this happens, then even if someone skilled
and experienced in this area comes to warn us, we won't be willing
to listen at all. All of these things are termed wrong concentration
that we don't realize to be wrong.
So what
is right concentration like, and how should you practice for the
sake of rightness? This is where a few differences lie. When you sit
in concentration and the mind gathers to rest -- no matter what the
level of concentration -- how long it stays there depends on the
particular strength of that level of concentration. Let the mind
rest in line with its level of concentration. There's no need to
force it to withdraw. Let it rest as long as it wants, and then it
will withdraw on its own. Once it withdraws, try to train yourself
to explore with your discernment. Whatever level of discernment
corresponds to that level of concentration, use it to investigate
and contemplate the physical properties (dhatu) and
khandhas. Whether you investigate these things within or without
is not an issue. All that is asked is that you investigate for
the sake of knowing cause and effect, for the sake of curing or
extricating yourself: Just this much is what's right. Use your
discernment to investigate conditions of nature (sabhava dhamma)
both within and without, or else exclusively within or exclusively
without. Contemplate them in terms of any one of the three
characteristics (ti-lakkhana) until you are experienced and
astute, until you can find the openings by which you can extricate
yourself step by step. When you have investigated to the point where
you feel tired, and the mind wants to rest in its home of
concentration, let it rest as much as it wants. Whether it rests for
a long or a short time is not an issue. Let it rest until it
withdraws on its own. As soon as it withdraws, continue with your
investigation of such phenomena as the body, as before.
This is
right concentration. Be aware of the fact that concentration is
simply a temporary resting place. When you have investigated a great
deal in the area of discernment and feel mentally tired, rest in
concentration. Once the mind is strong again, it'll withdraw. If
it's in shape to investigate, then continue investigating. Keep
practicing this way constantly. Your concentration will go smoothly,
and your discernment will always be astute. Things will go evenly,
both in the area of concentration and in the area of discernment,
because concentration is beneficial in one way, and discernment in
another. If you let yourself follow only the path of discernment,
you'll go wrong because you won't have concentration as a support.
If you let yourself follow only the path of concentration, you'll go
even more wrong than by simply following the path of discernment.
To
summarize: These two qualities are like a right arm and a left arm,
a right leg and a left leg. Wherever a person walks or whatever he
does, he needs both arms and both legs. Concentration and
discernment are necessary in just the same way. If you feel that
concentration is better than discernment, or discernment better than
concentration, then you should have only one arm or one leg, not two
arms and two legs like everyone else. In other words, you don't
fit in with the rest of the world. Whoever doesn't fit in with
the Dhamma of the Lord Buddha -- criticizing discernment and
praising concentration, or criticizing concentration and praising
discernment -- is the same sort of person.
What's
right is that when you are developing concentration, you have to do
your duties in terms of concentration and really see the value of
concentration. When you are contemplating with discernment, you have
to do your duties in terms of discernment and really see the value
of discernment. Let each side rest at the right time. Don't get them
mixed up together. It's the same as when you walk: When your right
foot takes a step, your left foot has to stop. When your left foot
takes a step, your right foot has to stop. They don't both step at
the same time. Thus both concentration and discernment have their
benefits. But when mindfulness and discernment develop enough
strength from being trained together, concentration and discernment
will then step together -- it's not the case that they'll always
take turns -- in the same way that your right arm and left arm work
together.
Here
we've discussed the relationship between concentration and
discernment for those who tend to develop concentration first, who
are usually in danger of their concentration's going out of bounds
without seeing discernment as the other side of the practice. If
it's a necessary quality, you should use it at the appropriate
times. As for those who tend to have discernment fostering their
concentration, their minds can't settle down into stillness simply
through the power of concentration practice alone. They need to use
discernment to put brakes on the mind -- which is restless and
running wild with its various preoccupations -- by keeping track of
the restlessness of the heart so as to see why it is restless
and what there is that encourages it to be that way.
Discernment has to go ferreting out the various things the mind is
labeling and interpreting until the mind surrenders to its
discernment and is able to enter stillness. This sort of stillness
of mind is said to be still through discernment.
Some
people, even when their minds have entered stillness, can at the
same time use discernment to investigate and form thoughts without
these things being an enemy to that stillness. Perhaps you may
think, 'If the mind is concentrated, how can it form thoughts?' and
then become doubtful about your concentration. This is called not
understanding your own tendencies. These doubts are normal for those
who aren't experienced and don't know -- since no one has given them
any directions that they can hold to as authoritative -- so they may
become uncertain about their practice when this sort of thing
happens to them. So here I'd like to take the opportunity to
explain: The mind that attains stillness through the method of using
discernment as its guardian can continue having thought processes
occurring on one level of concentration, but when we reach a fully
refined level, no matter which way our concentration is fostered,
all thought-formations will cease. No labeling of things will be
left in that refined concentration; no thought-formations or
cognizance of various things will appear.
To
summarize: The intermediate level of concentration for those whose
minds gather quickly -- namely, those who start out with
concentration -- won't have any thought processes, because the
moment thoughts forms, their minds will begin to withdraw from
concentration. The concentration attained through the guardian power
of discernment, though, can still form thoughts without the mind's
withdrawing from concentration -- and both types of concentration
must have mindfulness alert as they gather inward.
Today
I've explained the differences between wrong and right concentration
-- enough so that you as meditators will understand and take this as
a guide. I've stressed that mindfulness and discernment are very
important factors. Those of you who are training mindfulness
shouldn't wait to train it only when you are meditating. You must
train it at all times. Wherever you go, whatever you do, be mindful.
Always take your stance in the effort of the practice. Once there is
mindfulness, there also has to be self-awareness (sampajañña),
because self-awareness comes from established mindfulness. If
mindfulness is lacking, no self-awareness appears. So try to develop
your basic mindfulness until it is capable and strong enough to be
the sort of mindfulness suitable for the effort of the practice
within the heart. From that point it will become super-mindfulness
because you have continually fostered it and kept it established.
The
same holds true with discernment. Try to contemplate the things that
make contact with the mind: sights, sounds, smells, tastes, tactile
sensations, and the thoughts that occur exclusively within. You have
to explore these things, ferreting out their causes, until you find
it habitual to contemplate and think. When this level of discernment
gains strength, it will advance to a higher level, and you will be
able to use this higher level of discernment to investigate your
doubts about the situation exclusively within the heart. You will be
able to see things clearly and cut away your various doubts through
the power of discernment, the discernment you have trained in this
way so that it becomes super-discernment, just like
super-mindfulness. I've never seen it happen anywhere that anyone
who hasn't started out by training discernment in this way has
suddenly gained full results through superlative discernment.
Even those who are termed khippabhiñña -- who have attained
Awakening quickly -- started out from crude discernment, advancing
quickly, step by step, and gained Awakening in the Buddha's
presence, as we all know from the texts. So when we train our
mindfulness and discernment to follow our every movement, without
any thought for whether we're meditating or not, but simply keeping
this hidden sort of meditation going at all times, then no matter
what, our minds will have to enter stillness, and discernment will
begin to appear.
In
particular -- for those of us who are monks, or who are
single-mindedly intent on practicing for the sake of mental peace
and release from suffering and stress -- mindfulness and discernment
are even more necessary. Once we have trained mindfulness and
discernment to become so habitual that we're constantly circumspect,
then when we focus outside, we'll be intelligent. When we focus
inside -- on the body, feelings, mind, and phenomena -- we'll become
more and more astute. When we investigate body, feelings, labels,
thought-formations, and cognizance, we'll develop techniques for
removing defilement without break. Mindfulness is especially
important. If you lack mindfulness as a protective barrier at any
time, discernment will simply turn into labels without your
realizing it. Thus mindfulness is the quality with a solidity that
helps discernment become astute in a smooth and even way. The power
of mindfulness acts like the bank of a river, keeping discernment
from going out of bounds. Discernment that goes out of bounds
turns into labels. If it's true discernment, it doesn't go out
of bounds, because it has mindfulness in charge.
If you
use discernment to focus within the body, things will catch your
attention at every step. Inconstancy (anicca), stress
(dukkha), and not-selfness (anatta): One or another of
these three characteristics is sure to appear, because all of them
are always there in the nature of the body. When mindfulness and
discernment reach this level, the mind and its objects will come
into the present. You should know that no Dhamma has ever
appeared because of past or future affairs. It appears only
because of the present. Even if you contemplate matters of the past
of future, you have to bring them into the scope of the present if
you hope to gain any benefit from them. For example, if you see
someone die, refer it to yourself: 'I'll have to die as well.' As
soon as the word 'I' appears, things come running back to you and
appear in the present. Matters of past and future, if you want them
to be useful, must always be brought into the present. For example,
'Yesterday that person died. Today or tomorrow I may die in the same
way.' With the 'I', you immediately come into the present. External
matters have to be brought inward; matters ahead and behind have to
be brought into the present if they are to serve any benefit. If you
always use mindfulness and discernment to contemplate the conditions
of nature -- such as the body -- all around you, then no matter
what, things won't lie beyond your grasp. You'll have to understand
them clearly.
In
investigating phenomena, such as the body, analyze them into their
parts and aspects, and use your discernment to contemplate them
until they are clear. Don't let thoughts or allusions drag you away
from the phenomenon you are investigating, unless you are using
thoughts as a standard for your discernment to follow when it
doesn't yet have enough strength for the investigation. Keep
mindfulness firmly in place as a protective fence -- and you will
come to understand clearly things you never understood before,
because the conditions of nature are already there in full
measure. You don't have to go looking anywhere for inconstancy,
stress, and not-selfness. They are qualities filling your body and
mind at all times. The only problem is that mindfulness and
discernment haven't been able to ferret them out to make them your
own wealth. But if you are set on investigating observantly day and
night -- thinking not about how many times you do it in a day or
night, but taking the skill and agility of your discernment as your
standard -- keeping mindfulness as a steady flow in the present and
radiating discernment all around you, then whatever makes a move in
any direction, mindfulness and discernment will follow right after
it. When we have trained mindfulness and discernment to be
sufficient to the task like this, how will their foes be able to
withstand them? After all, we haven't made it our purpose to
encourage such things as restlessness and distraction. We're trying
at all times to practice the Dhamma -- the means for stopping such
things -- so as to keep abreast of the movements of the bandits
always lying in wait to rob us at any moment.
We must
thus force the mind to investigate in the way we've mentioned.
Ferret out each part of the body so as to see it clearly, from the
outside into the inside, or take just the inside and bring it out
for a look. Look forwards and backwards, up and down, separating the
body into pieces. You can imagine fire burning it into ashes and
dust, or whatever other ways you can imagine it scattered into
pieces, depending on what comes easiest to you. All count as ways in
which your discernment is making itself ingenious and astute. When
it's sufficiently developed, you'll be wise to all of these things,
and they'll be clear to your heart without your having to ask anyone
else about them at all.
The
more you investigate the body until you understand it clearly, the
more clearly you will understand the affairs of feelings, mind, and
phenomena, or feelings, labels, thought-formations, and cognizance,
because all these things are whetstones for sharpening discernment
step by step. It's the same as when we bail water out of a fish
pond: The more water we bail out, the more clearly we'll see the
fish. Or as when clearing a forest: The more vegetation we cut away,
the more space we'll see. The things I've just mentioned are the
factors that conceal the mind so that we can't clearly see the
mental currents that flow out from the heart to its various
preoccupations. When you use discernment to contemplate in this way,
the currents of the heart will become plain. You'll see the rippling
of the mind clearly every moment it occurs -- and the heart itself
will become plain, because mindfulness is strong and discernment
quick. As soon as the mind ripples, mindfulness and discernment --
which are there in the same place -- will be able to keep track of
it and resolve it in time. But be aware that in investigating the
five khandhas or the four frames of reference (satipatthana),
we aren't trying to take hold of these things as our paths,
fruitions, and nibbana. We're trying to strip them away so as
to see exactly what is the nature of the fish -- namely, the heart
containing all sorts of defilements.
The
more you investigate... You needn't count how many times you do it
in a day. Focus instead on how expert and agile you can make your
mind at investigating. The more you investigate -- and the more
skillful you get at investigating -- the more the astuteness of your
discernment, which is sharp and flashing as it deals with you
yourself and with conditions of nature in general, will develop
until it has no limit. You'll eventually have the knowledge and
ability to realize that the conditions of nature you have been
investigating in stages -- beginning with sights, sounds,
smells, tastes, and tactile sensations throughout the cosmos, and
turning inward to your own body, feelings, labels,
thought-formations, and cognizance -- are not defilements,
cravings, or mental effluents in any way. The heart alone is
what has defilements, cravings, and mental effluents with which it
binds itself. Nothing else has the power to reach into the heart
so as to bind it. Aside from the heart that is ignorant about
itself -- searching for shackles for its neck and setting the fires
of delusion to burn itself to no purpose -- there are no traces
of enemies to the heart anywhere at all. We can compare this to
a knife, which is a tool made to benefit intelligent people, but
which a foolish person grabs hold of to kill himself and then
accuses the knife of being his enemy. What precedent is there for
making such a charge? All conditions of nature in general are like
useful tools, but a stupid person grabs hold of them to bind himself
and then claims that the conditions of nature throughout the world
have put their heads together to abuse him. Who can decide such a
case? -- for the plaintiff has already killed himself. If we decide
that the instrument of death loses the case to the dead plaintiff,
what sort of vindication is the plaintiff going to gain to give him
any satisfaction?
The
heart that's deluded about itself and about its own affairs is in
the same sort of predicament. Thus when discernment begins to
penetrate in to know the conditions of nature -- beginning with the
body -- it will also have to penetrate into the causal point. It
will know clearly with its discernment the objects to which the mind
tends to send its mental currents, and how strong or weak, many or
few those currents are. It will come to see that the things that it
used to see as enemies aren't really enemies at all. This is because
of the power of discernment that has contemplated things carefully
and correctly. At the same time, it will turn around to perceive the
awareness inside itself as being its own enemy. This is because of
the power of the discernment that sees clearly and comes in, letting
go stage by stage, the things it can no longer hold to. This is why
clear understanding through discernment -- once it has realized that
sights, sounds and so forth, on into the body, feelings, labels,
thought-formations, and cognizance, are not enemies -- must let them
go stage by stage until they no longer remain in the heart.
And as
for this knowing nature: Before, we weren't able to tell whether it
was harmful or beneficial, which is why we went about branding
things all over the cosmos as being good or bad, beautiful or ugly,
lovable or hateful, so amazing as to make us feel like floating or
so dreary as to make us miserable and unable to sleep because of the
dreariness: in short, making ourselves pleased, displeased, and
endlessly miserable without our realizing it. What is the cause
that makes the mind like a wheel, turning in cycles around
itself, generating the fires of passion, aversion, and delusion to
burn itself at all times? When discernment has contemplated things
until they are clear, all conditions of nature, within and without,
will be seen to have the same characteristics. None of them are
enemies to anyone at all. You will see -- the moment discernment
removes all the things concealing it -- that the only fault lies
with this knowing nature. At this point, when the knower moves
or ripples -- blip! -- you'll know immediately that the inner wheel
is getting into the act. This is the troublemaker, heaping up
misery. It's the direct cause of suffering and stress. Aside from
this knowing nature, there is no cause of suffering and stress
anywhere in the world.
When we
reach this level, only this awareness -- this entire awareness -- is
the cause of suffering. When this fact becomes this clear to the
heart through discernment, who would be willing to hold to this
knower -- this wheel -- as his or her self? This is the subtle
discernment, the automatic discernment in the principles of nature,
that was trained by our forcing it in the beginning stages. The
results now appear as an ingenuity and intelligence sufficient to
the task. There's nothing wrong with calling it super-discernment.
In addition to knowing the revolving mind that is the cause of
stress, this discernment turns inward to know why that mind is a
cause of stress, and how. Intent on knowing, it probes in after the
reasons that reveal themselves.
But for
the most part when we reach this level, if our discernment hasn't
really considered things with precision and thoroughness, we're sure
to get stuck on this revolving awareness, because it's the supreme
cause of the cycle -- so deceptive and attractive that we as
meditators don't realize our attachment to it. In addition to being
deluded and attached without our realizing it, we may even spread
this subtle form of delusion, through our misunderstanding, to
delude many other people as well.
So to
let you know: This knowing nature, in terms of it marvelousness, is
more marvelous than anything else. In terms of its radiance, it's
more radiant than anything else, which is why we should call it a
pit of burning embers secretly lying in wait for us. But no matter
what, this knowing nature can't withstand the discernment that is
its match in subtlety. We are sure to learn the truth from our
discernment that this knowing nature is the foremost cause of
suffering and stress. When we know this, this nature won't be able
to stand. It will have to disintegrate immediately, just as when
people smash a solid object to pieces with an iron bar.
When
this nature disintegrates after having been destroyed by
discernment, a nature marvelous far above and beyond any
conventional reality will appear in full measure. At the same
moment, we will see the harm of what is harmful and the benefits of
what is beneficial. The awareness of release will appear as
dhammo padipo -- the brightness of the Dhamma -- in full
radiance, like the sun that, when unobscured by clouds, lets the
world receive the full radiance of its light. The result is that the
awareness of release appears plainly to the heart of the meditator
the moment unawareness has disbanded.
This is
the result. What the causes are, I've already explained to you:
conviction, persistence, mindfulness, concentration, and
discernment. This is the path to follow leading right to this point.
It doesn't lead anywhere else. Whether you live at home, in a
monastery, or in a forest, whether you're a woman or a man, ordained
or not: If you have these five qualities always with you, you're
heading toward this point. In other words, we all have the same
full rights in the practice and in the results we'll receive.
So I
ask that all of you as meditators -- and you know clearly that you
are meditators and abstainers as well -- I ask that you practice so
as to develop your thoughts, words, and deeds, and that you fully
abstain from things that are your enemies until you reach the goal
-- the release of nibbana -- as I've already explained. None
of these qualities lie beyond your mindfulness, discernment, and
relentless effort. These are the teachings the Buddha gave to us as
svakkhata-dhamma -- the well-taught Dhamma. In other words,
he rightly taught us the path to follow. He taught that the wrong
path was really wrong, and the right path really right. And the
results -- release and nibbana -- that come from following
the right path were also rightly taught. The only problem is with
those of us following the path: Will we really follow it rightly or
not? If we follow it rightly in line with what the Buddha
taught, the results are sure to appear as sammadeva asavehi
vimuccati -- right release from all defilements and mental
effluents.
So for
this reason you should make an effort to train your mindfulness and
discernment at every moment and not just in any one particular
position. Don't think that this is making too much of an effort. The
more you understand, the more ingenious you become, the more you can
cure defilement, the more you gain release from suffering and
stress: These are the results we all want step by step until we
really gain release with nothing left. In other words, we gain
release while we're conscious and aware in this lifetime, while
overseeing these five khandhas. This is the most certain
Dhamma -- because the word svakkhata-dhamma, the Dhamma
rightly taught by the Buddha, doesn't mean that it's right only
after we die. It's also right while we are practicing it, and
the results that come in line with our efforts appear clearly to the
hearts of meditators while they are alive.
As for
the methods or techniques you use to train your hearts, I ask to
leave them up to each person's intelligence and ingenuity in the
course of making the effort in the practice. You have to notice
which positions are most helpful in your practice. Don't simply sit
and keep on sitting, or walk and keep on walking. You have to
remember to notice what results and benefits you get from your
efforts as well, because different people may find themselves more
or less suited to the four different positions of sitting, standing,
walking, and lying down.
Today
I've explained the Dhamma to all of you from the beginning to the
final point of my ability, so I feel that this should be enough for
now. I ask that each of you take the Dhamma that I've explained
today and that you have encountered in your practice, and make it
food for thought or a companion to your practice. The results you
will receive can in no way deviate from today's explanation.
So I'll
ask to stop here.
Evam
The Savor of the Dhamma
December 13, 1981
The
mind constantly coerced or oppressed at all times and the mind
absolutely released from that coercion and oppression are two very
different things -- so different that there is no conventional
reality that can be compared to the mind released. This sort of mind
doesn't lie in the realm of conventional reality in such a way that
anything may rightly be compared to it in keeping with the reality
of its nature. Even though some comparisons can be made, they're
simply a manner of speaking. They aren't really in line with the
truth of that nature as it exists. We have to make comparisons
simply because the world has its conventions and analogies.
We see
prisoners in jail who are coerced and oppressed, who are deprived of
their freedom at all times beginning from the day of their
imprisonment to the day of their release. What sort of happiness do
they have? Even though they may have their laughter, in line with
the things that may make them laugh, it's still the laughter of
prisoners. Just hearing the word 'prisoner' is enough to tell us
that happiness isn't what produces their laughter. Their penalty is
what produces their laughter. It keeps coercing and oppressing them.
So where can we find any happiness and pleasure among them?
We can
take this and compare it inwardly to the state of affairs between
the mind and the defilements that coerce and oppress it. These
things control and coerce it with every mental moment. Even when the
mind isn't forming any thoughts, it's still controlled and coerced
in this way, in line with its nature. When this is the case, where
can it find any true happiness? The happiness it does have is
happiness like the food fed to prisoners. And what sort of food is
that? Even though we may never have been imprisoned, we know what
sort of food is fed to prisoners. Is there anything satisfying about
it, the food they feed prisoners?
The
foods -- the temptations -- with which the defilements feed the
mind, if we were to speak in the way of the world, are simply to
keep it from dying, in the same way that prisoners are fed. The
defilements feed the mind so that it can be put to work, in the same
way that prisoners are fed so that they can be put to work, so that
we can get the fruits of their labor. The food for the mind that the
defilements bring to sustain us is thus like the food fed to
prisoners. There's no difference at all. If we compare them, that's
the way they are.
But if
we look from a different angle, we can see that prisoners are still
better off than we are, because they know that they eat their food
out of necessity. They don't eat it out of satisfaction with it or
its taste or anything, because there's nothing at all gratifying
about the food they are fed. But we meditators are still content to
be attached to the flavor of worldly pleasures, so we're said to be
stuck. When we're attached to visual objects, it's because we find
flavor in them. When we're attached to sounds, smells, tastes, and
tactile sensations, it's simply because we find flavor in them.
It's not the case that the only flavor is the flavor we taste with
the tongue. All forms of contact -- with the eye, ear, nose,
tongue, body, and mind -- have their flavor, and we've been attached
to them in such a way that we haven't even realized our attachment
for aeons and aeons.
The
mind is attached, bound, and feels love for these things without
knowing that they are flavors that tie us down, that they are all
matters of defilement: the flavors of defilement. So we are attached
to the point where we will never know the harm of these flavors at
all if we don't use mindfulness and discernment to investigate them
wisely. Regardless of how many aeons may pass, we will have to be
attached to these flavors, engrossed in these flavors, without ever
coming to our senses. This is the ingenuity, the cleverness of the
defilements. How ingenious and clever are they?
If you
want to know, then set your heart on the practice. And don't forget
what I'm saying here. Someday it's sure to become clear to your
heart as a result of your earnest practice. There's no escaping it.
Listen carefully to the Buddha's words: 'The flavor of the Dhamma
surpasses all other flavors.' What sort of flavor is the flavor of
the Dhamma that it has to surpass all other flavors? Those other
flavors are the flavors of the food of prisoners, imprisoned in the
wheel of death and rebirth through the power of defilement. They
aren't food or flavors that can keep the heart satisfied. They
aren't true flavors. They aren't the flavors of the truth. They're
the flavors of the counterfeits that the defilements whip up into
being for us to touch or to eat. They aren't the flavors of the true
Dhamma.
The
flavor of the Dhamma will begin to appear when the mind is centered
in concentration. As soon as the mind begins to be still, pleasure
will begin to appear as its flavor, depending on the amount of
stillness in line with the levels of its tranquillity. When we say
'levels of tranquillity', don't go thinking that they're separate
steps, like those of a ladder. It's simply a way of speaking.
Actually, they're all connected, from the pleasure of basic
concentration progressively up to the levels of refined
concentration. The pleasure that arises will become correspondingly
more and more refined. This counts as one of the flavors of the
Dhamma -- the Dhamma of concentration, the Dhamma of peace -- in the
levels of the stillness of the mind.
As soon
as the mind has stillness for its food, it lets go of its concerns
for the various flavors of sights, sounds, smells, tastes, and
tactile sensations step by step, because the flavor of this
stillness begins to excel them. Even this is enough to begin
excelling all other flavors. Even more so when the mind begins to
investigate things with its discernment, analyzing them in terms of
the three characteristics or the meditation theme of
unattractiveness -- because in the beginning we tend to develop the
theme of unattractiveness, contemplating every part of our own body
and the bodies of others, inside and out, as seems most appropriate
and natural for us to investigate, because they all share the same
conditions for us to see clearly step by step: The flavor of the
Dhamma will then intensify, becoming an ingenious flavor. And in
addition to being an ingenious flavor, it's a flavor that comes from
being able to let go.
The
nature of the mind is such that once it investigates anything to the
point of seeing it clearly, it lets go. When it hasn't let go, when
it grasps with attachment, these are the chains and fetters with
which defilement keeps it bound. The defilements confer titles,
telling us, 'This is good. That's pretty. This is beautiful.' They
never tell us that the body is filthy, ugly, inconstant, stressful,
and not-self -- not belonging to us or to anyone else. These are
things the defilements never tell us, never mention, never suggest
in line with the principles of the truth. Instead, they bring their
own principles in to interfere with the Dhamma, telling us just the
opposite -- that this or that is beautiful, lasting, valuable --
denying the truth every step of the way because they are very
powerful. For this reason, we need to keep track of their deceits,
counteracting and removing them, by using such qualities as
mindfulness and discernment.
Our
world is entirely stuck in the deceits of defilement. When
discernment has investigated inward, in line with the principles of
unattractiveness as we have already mentioned, and in line with the
three characteristics of inconstancy, stress, and not-self, probing
and analyzing back and forth, time and again, the truths that the
defilements have kept concealed will be revealed in line with these
principles of truth -- because these principles are truth pure and
simple. There's nothing counterfeit about them. What's counterfeit
-- our false views -- are an affair of defilement, not an affair of
the Dhamma.
We will
be able truly to see things as they are -- without a doubt -- once
we can remove the counterfeit things that conceal them. For example,
beauty: Where, exactly, is the body beautiful? What is there about
it that you can claim to be beautiful? If you speak in terms of the
principles of the truth, how can you even look at the human body?
It's entirely filled with filthiness, both within and without, which
is why we have to keep washing it all the time. Even the clothing
and other articles on which the body depends have to be dirty
because the main part -- the body -- is a well of filth within and
without. Whatever it comes into contact with -- robes, clothing,
dwelling, bedding -- has to become dirty as well. Wherever human
beings live becomes dirty, but we don't see the truth, mainly
because we aren't interested in looking.
As
meditators we should investigate so as to see this truth. Don't run
away from it. This is the genuine truth. The things that fool us
into seeing the body as beautiful are counterfeit and false. So.
Look into your body. Which part can you claim to be beautiful, to
contend with the truth of the Dhamma? Look for it. Is there
any part that dares claim to be above the Dhamma and more true than
the Dhamma -- unless it's simply more false than the Dhamma?
The
fact that the Dhamma isn't appearing in our heart is because at the
moment falseness is more powerful, more established, and conceals
things completely. Even though there's filth throughout the body
both within and without, we're still able to regard it as beautiful
and lasting. The issues between truth and falsity lie within our
body and mind, because the defilements themselves lie within the
mind and spread their power out throughout the various parts of the
body, and then splash out beyond, throughout the world of rebirth,
saying that this is us, that's ours, everything is us, ours,
beautiful, lasting, enjoyable -- depending on the song with which
the defilements, the deceivers, fool the mind into jumping,
bouncing, and spinning much more than a soccer ball. And what
happiness can we find in jumping along with all the deceits we've
mentioned here?
If we
haven't yet awakened and come to our senses, when will we, and
where? If the Dhamma of the Lord Buddha hasn't awakened us
meditators, who in the world will be able to awaken us? As they say,
'svakkhato bhagavata dhammo': 'The Dhamma of the Buddha is
rightly taught' -- rightly taught in a way clear to see, with
nothing hidden or esoteric. What's hidden about it? If we look with
our eyes, we'll see in line with what I've said here.
So.
Look on in, from the skin on in. Skin-scum and sweat-scum: Is there
anything good about them? Anything clean and beautiful? If they were
clean, how could we call them scum? Then look on inside. What is
there inside that can contend with the Dhamma and claim to be pretty
and beautiful? The Dhamma tells us that there's nothing pretty or
beautiful in there, that it's all filthy. So which part is going to
contend with the Dhamma of the Lord Buddha? If the Dhamma is
false, if the Buddha didn't teach it rightly, then find
something to prove it wrong. All of the things that the Dhamma
criticizes: When you penetrate into them with discernment, you'll
find that that's just how they are. There's no point with which you
can argue.
All of
these things have been true ever since before we investigated them,
but the defilements have closed our eyes to them. Even though we see
them, we don't see them for what they are. Even though filth fills
the body, the defilements deny it entirely and turn it into
something beautiful -- and we believe them, without looking at the
Dhamma that's waving its arms at us, ready to help us at all times,
as if it were calling to us: 'Hold on. Hold on to the Dhamma. Hurry
up, and you'll escape from danger. Hurry and let go of the
defilements. They're a fire burning you.'
See
what happens when you smash the defilements to bits. Fight with them
until you have no more breath to breathe. That's when the Dhamma
will fully reveal itself in every facet for you to see clearly. This
is the way of digging into the things that conceal so as to uncover
the truth: the genuine Dhamma. If we see the truth, we begin to see
the genuine Dhamma step by step. Even on the level of stillness,
we're already not embroiled with anything, because we have the savor
of the Dhamma. The heart can drink of the Dhamma: mental peace and
calm. The heart doesn't jump or run, isn't vain or proud, restless
or distracted, flying out after various preoccupations, because it
has found a satisfying food to sustain it.
When we
use discernment to investigate -- to prepare our food, so to speak
-- to make it even more exquisite than the food of tranquillity,
turning it into the food of discernment, this has a flavor even more
exquisite and refined, without limit, which comes from investigating
and analyzing the body, the theme of our meditation. The basic
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